Monday, February 19, 2007

An empty room can be so deafening,
The silence makes you wanna scream,
It drives you crazy.
I chased away the shadows of your name,
And burned the picture in a frame,
But it couldn't save me.

And how could we quit something we never even tried?
Well you still can't tell me why.

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
Just to find what your looking for.
But no matter how I try....

Your not the person that you used to be,
The one I want who wanted me,
And that's a shame but,
There's only so many tears that you can cry.
Before it drains the light right from your eyes,
And I can't go on that way.
And so I'm letting go of everything we were,
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
Just to find what your looking for.
But no matter how I try...

Sometimes you hold so tight,
It slips right through your hands.
Will I ever understand?

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
Just to find what your looking for.
But no matter how I try.

N.L.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

"Verse"

I tried to write you a song
But what I’m feeling is too strong,
For a poem, or a tome
Or any words at all

I tried to be with you
But to never touch you or kiss you
Made my soul parch
With longing I never knew

I tried to make you love me
And give you the best of me
But all my best
Could not part the ocean between us

And so I tried to control you
To take hold of you
But all I could hold
Was your ghost; not your soul

I tried to release you
And vowed not to chase you
And you left
But your ghost stayed behind

I tried to defeat you
And make myself hate you
Because so hurt and haunted
I was losing my mind

But no matter how hard I try
I can’t let you go
When I look at your eyes
I see a part of me
That belongs by my side
And never in tow…

… but now I can’t make you real
Because you’re a ghost.

From my highest sun-crested peaks
To my vacuous darkest depths
I have followed your ghost through my whole kingdom
And seen everything that lies within

All the ugliness and allure
All the foolishness and majesty
All the depravity and virtue
All the decay and fortitude

… and the empty throne next to mine.

When I walked away, that is what I realized:
This emptiness cannot be satisfied
With only a ghost, an apparition, an image on a screen - to occupy it.

The emptiness will now rule
It has taken control
An emptiness I always knew
But could wield
Until I met you

I am lost in the wilderness, chasing your ghost
And emptiness stalks the thrones

I have summoned every angel at my command
To adorn you
And I have fought with every demon of my nature
To protect you
I have traversed every crevice of my being
In pursuit of your ghost

But know this:
I have never, NEVER meant to hurt you.

I have become a different person
A kingdom ruled by an empty throne
And how could you love what I’ve become?
Drugged, drunk, deaf and dumb?

Emptiness now rules my kingdom…

… and so the emptiness will remain
Until I find myself, lost somewhere in the wilderness
I will dream that someday, some way
We can rule together again.

- S.M.

Anonymous said...

coño, pero es un fans club que tienes?

Delilah Tiamat Thuban said...

don't think so.